Lost in the sea of wonder

I cant seem to forget you

You shun me

I love you

But I cant have you

Tell me

Tell me the truth

Why

I cant stand it

Quit everything

Keep the voices out of my head

Help me

Im lost

Lost in your eyes

Forever in your dreams

I cant stop it

Your face

Hidden behind the screen,

The mask of cyberspace

Your voice

Music in my ears

Flooding me, my soul, mind and body

Why does it have to be this way?

Why, I can't stand it

I give up

God, take me now

Misery

Stop it,

Hold everything

Freeze time

Just let me watch him

I ask this

You know how much I love the person

Please, please, I just want to know the truth

Tell me

Typing my feelings always helps me

I dont know why

Maybe by confession

My dreams do come true

Just let me have you

Both of them

Either of them

You know what I wont

Please, I beg of you, please

Do this or take me,

I dont mean to be forceful

I just mean

Either do this or please take me

I love everyone here too much

But I cause too much harm

 But I leave my heart and soul

To those who want it,

Those who are welling to keep it,

Side by side with theyre own

To not hide it but not show it either

To say they did, in fact, love me back

Those who were not embarrassed by me, though they should have had.

Why does everything have to be so difficult?

Everything hidden in lies and poison

Deep within the lake of fire in that persons soul

I'm not sure of myself anymore

Not sure if I should go on or not,

The pain is too thick

It hangs heavily in the air

Forbidding kindness, truth, love, or peace

I can't stand it anymore

If it doesnt stop Ill have to fix it, one way or another,

Why does things have to work out so badly.

But, just but, if I could know the truth just what Ive been wanting so badly to know for as long as Ive wanted to know.

Then maybe things could be different

But no, I bet it wont

I can't show you my love, because I'm not even sure myself that they are even my true friends.

Tear flood my face when I think of it for too long.

But I fight them,

 I keep telling myself that I dont love you,

But I do, I can't help it,

By lying I confuse both of us.

I just wont to hold you

I dont care anymore,

Ill show you, I just up with the consequences

So what I'm dying either way,

I just hope of acceptance

Acceptance into your heart

Where I will merge with you

Good bye for now

But forever and always I will love you.

Remember that I will always

Please

Please